Bye Myvi

It was indeed a sad day, when we realised that today was the last day to have myvi with us. You were having the hardest time-you practically grew up with it. 5 of your 7 years of age was with the car around. You hugged the front seat and cried your heart out like it was nobodys business. I held back my tears, of course, one of us had to be strong, right :'( .

Never thought letting myvi go could be this painful.

But we make sacrifices for getting something better. It may not be what we would like to do, but if its the best thing to do, we have to do it.

One day you will understand, ya sayang.

I love you so..ooo..  much.

"Saya nak car ni mama, tak nak yang lain"

 Cant let go

 Thanks a million, Myvi. You've been a good baby.

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Sabr

Salam, sayang mama.

I know that this entry may be too heavy for you now (you're just 7!! haha!) But since its VERY important for you to know, to understand this as EARLY as you can, and knowing that I may not be able to do it later ( i may forgot about this, may get too preoccupied with other things... etc) I think I better put it out now. IF YOU CAN'T RELATE TO THIS NOW, COME REVISIT THIS POST LATER when you can :D.

Just so you know, I know a lot of strong, independent women who are allowing themselves to be oppressed by their life partners, and many of their loved ones. I can't do much for them, I can only listen to their heartbreaking stories when they need a shoulder to cry on, and suggest what they should do. But no matter what I said, what I advised them to do, they would in the end do what their hearts tell them to do. And the matters of hearts; what they feel like doing, what they love doing, hate doing, are influenced by their environment, growing norms and surroundings since they are as young as 6 years old. To change how the hearts behave would take more than a simple talk from me. It needs to come as natural as their growing environment, as natural as listening to their favourite music etc. Something as natural as may be; serendipity.

So I am hoping that I am providing you the RIGHT environment for your heart to rule your whole being to act in the RIGHT way when you are wronged.

In everything we do, as a muslim, we have to have SABR in our hearts. But what is SABR really? It is NOT PASSIVE, not willingly suffer in silence, but to RESPOND in THE RIGHT WAY. Because you'll see, 'responding' is not at all difficult, but to ensure that you respond in the RIGHT way, takes a whole lot more than knowing what to do, but also the correct state of mind, supported with strong heart, that is filled with iman (Sabr, is HALF of it), perseverance, and belief that Allah would return what you do now in the hereafter.

When you have the time, listen to the talk above. She's really good. May Allah return the favours to her, amiin.

I am sorry, sayang. I am thinking of writing something better than this. Something more casual, lighter. I will come back one day for that, InsyaAllah.

Allah is Taking Care of You.

Masjidil Haram, Makkah.

Sayang mama, Aliya.

Cantik, kan sayang? Subhanallah... Its magnificent. I think so. If you think so too, say 'Subhanallah', ya.

InsyaAllah. This is where we (mama, abah and tok ma only, ya) are going soon, while you stay with Opah, Adnin, and everyone kat umah Opah. InsyaAllah, this 6th of October, 2011, mama, abah and tok ma will fly from KLIA to Makkah/Madinah (yet to be confirmed).

So.. Mama just want to say... Aliya ~ stay good, ya. As good as I've ever known you. I know you will be okay, happy, and will be having lots of fun with everybody kat umah Opah. You will have all the time you need to do things you've always want to do kat umah Opah. I'm sure I don't have to remind you what they are. I am sure you'll spend all your energy from sunrise till VERY early morning till you sleep again having so much things to do. If you feel hungry, tell Opah all your favourite food. Remind Ateh or Andak to buy Butterscotch so that senang whenever you feel hungry you boleh makan dgn air Milo. Easy peasy. Minum lots of milk (unless bila you batuk, kena banyak minum air masak instead, ya). And eat as you usually do. Alah. I'm sure you will be fine. Listen to Opah, Andak, Achik, and Ashoo. Do not bully them! Haha. And Not too much of anything, ya. Oh! During weekends, ibu pun balik juga dengan Adam. So boleh main dgn ibu dengan Adam. Oh... You'll do great, I know.

I am sure Allah is taking care of you. Even more now, as He honoured me and abah the invitation to His place. I am actually not worried of you not being okay. Okay okay.. I can't help but ONLY just a bit! haha (i never lie to you). Of course, you're to me, and abah - THE BEST BABY EVER!. And we love you more than anything in the world. Remember when i show you 'this much" and raised my hands sampai nampak ketiak? Even everybody in this world angkat tangan sampai nampak ketiak pun wouldn't match how much we love you. So of course, we can't help worrying a bit. But we believe, deep in our hearts, we KNOW, that Allah will take care of you. He always does. Even now, as I type this in, and as you lie here next to me watching the Beverly Hills Chihuahua on TV3. 

We are leaving for Makkah, to be closer to Allah. To get the chance to be a better person. Me, a better person, a better mother and friend, to you. A better wife, for Abah. A better child, for Opah, Wan and Tok Ma. A better sister for Ibu, Ayah De and Mak De, Andak, Anjang and Papanjang, Ateh, Achik and Ashu. And also Pak Ngah, Mak Ngah, Uncle Chik, Uncle Pik, Uncle Ming, Uncle Dan, and Cik Su. A better aunt for Adam, Am, Iesya and Adnin. All in all, a better human being, as a servant of Allah. InsyaAllah. May Allah bless all of us, accept our sacrifices in all forms, and grant us the Haji Mabrur. Barulah worth all the hardship for all yang mama and abah and tok ma tinggalkan here at home. InsyaAllah. Mama promise you, that I will do my best. I will strive for His blessings and redha. It is my hope that Allah would redha us jannah, the paradise that i told you about, the wonderful place, in the hereafter. I'm sure you will be there. You kan good girl? So I have to do my best to meet you there. InsyaAllah, sayang. Amiiin...

There is so much that I want to say. But I will write again soon. Now I have to go dulu. See you soon.

O I love you so, Aliya. MMuuuahhsss. :))