An Afternoon With Muhammad Zaki Irfan

(Pic from Aunty Zubye... Jgn Marah ye Aunty.. Mama lupa bawak smartcard dlm camera hari itu! Hahaha)

Semalam kita pegi tengok movie dgn Irfan dan Aunty Zubye... kat KLCC. Citer apa, sayang? Planet 51... Best tak? Mesti la best... lagi best sbb the company we were with... betul kan?

It was a great experience actually. Sbb yesterday was the first time kita dapat spend masa alone dgn Irfan and Aunty Zubye. Selalunye jumpa diorang dalam big group... so tak sempat sangat nak bersosial betul2 ;-). Semalam baru lah nampak macam mana you two get along.

So camana you two get along?
VERY WELL. Jalan pimpin tangan. Kalau sorang takde or lambat sorang mesti tunggu. Nak duduk mesti sebelah2. Makan pun share menda yang sama. Boleh berborak... bergossip (mama teringat gaya irfan bisik kat telinga aliya pasal tangan mama dia kena pisau... hehehe). Sometimes you two disagree on certain things but both of you were not been bothered at all about them. You guys enjoyed each others company.

Dari kelmarin lagi mama dah prepara Aliya mentally dgn activity semalam. So you know that we will be expecting Irfan. Semalam masa tgh siap2 nak pakai baju.. Aliya tanya mama;

"Irfan will be my new best friend ke mama?"

"We dont know that yet, sayang. Aliya kena tengok lah dulu Irfan macam mana dengan Aliya. Dia baik ke... garang ke.. Then Aliya yang kena bagitau mama dia best friend Aliya ke tak... "

"Fatin wasa dia baik je"

"Mama pun rasa camtu juga. Sbb mama dia best friend mama. And mama dah kenal Irfan dari cakap2 dgn mama dia. But just because mama dia best friend mama, it doesn't mean yang you kena jadi best friend dia, tau. Although it would be very2 good if you guys are. Nantilah kita tgk camane, okay?"

"I am so excited I can't wait!" Hahahaha

Mama tak risau sangat pasal Aliya and Irfan. Mama tau Irfan good boy. And Aliya takde masalah dgn kawan dgn good boy. Aliya cuma tak suka kids yang too physically agressive and garang. Mama dah tengok Aliya macammana dgn kids yang macam tu. You would rather cling to me or sit by yourself rather than trying. You would ignore them.

But then, semalam memang proven Irfan was a good boy. He was your equal in the attitude/behave. And also, sama confident and smart. So sama2 lah akan argue bila masing2 ada fikiran/fahaman masing2. But tu lah... it was great to see that that was acceptable to you two. Boleh aje main macam2.... cuma Aliya tak reti aje masa Irfan ajak main 'kawin2'... hahaha! Aliya tak pernah jumpa permainan tu sblm ni!

"So what do you think of Irfan? Best tak Irfan?" Mama tanya masa kita da atas AKLEH on the way balik rumah. Sampai malam kita lepak.. tu pun mama rasa nak balik cepat sbb Aliya ada bengkak mata kejap.. allergic kena wool snow cap Gap rasanya. Seb baik by the time nak masuk toys r us dah okey. Hehe.

"Best... I miss him, momma" You said.

There. Mama rasa those words simply conclude how you really felt yesterday.

Takpe... kalau Irfan and aunty zubye pun enjoyed our company, nanti confirm kita dating lagi. Plus, more kids movie coming, kan Aunty Zubye ;-)

You Have a Pal

Wah! Hari ini dua entry sekali mama buat!

This... is the pic of you and your best gal... Ainul. You mentioned her a lot. You love her hair. And I can see how close you were with her during the Futsal Fiesta.

I did snap another pic of you two... but it turned out blurred! Sorry darling. This is the best pic of you two for that day. You two look cute together. Simply adorable.

Mama da lama nak upload gamba ni.. Ni gambar masa TKC's Futsal Fiesta baru2 ni. Tapi mama demam lama. Teruk mama demam sampai bukak pc nak baca email pun boleh pening sampai migrane. Tak mampu la pulak nak buat task yang memerlukan mama tunggu lama2 camni. Since your dad dah install streamyx... laju lah skit speed upload maka mama pun lebih bermotivasi hari ini ;-)

Gambar2 lain ada kat http://picasaweb.google.com/rmarzyani/TKCFutsalFiesta?authkey=Gv1sRgCOKT0fL8kO68NA&feat=directlink. kalau Aliya nak tgk nanti. Kat list albums pun ada juga tapi saje mama letak kat sini.

Mama doakan Aliya akan dikelilingi sahabat2 yang baik dan setia, yang juga mampu membimbing dan membentuk Aliya sebagai insan yang baik.

Sayang anak mama.

Bye-Bye Preschool... & Hello Kindy!

My darling, Aliya.

The PTD, today marks the end of your preschool. So soon! Da besar da baby mama ni... And, you and I went to see teacher Lalitha, the Rose's class teacher for this term. She's a cheerful, fun person, no wonder you love her! Here are among the interesting things teacher Lalitha said about you...

"Fatin Aliya is a very bright student. Very smart and a fast learner. I won't be worrying too much about her if she is my daughter. She could do what is expected of her age: To know letters and numbers, basic mathematical skills, and she has improved a lot in her writing and fine skills. Only, she seems to be having a little problem sitting in one place"

"Does she has any problems concentrating in class? During the lessons?"

"Oh no, she does not. She could concentrate well when a teacher is teaching in front, and usually could understand the lessons given with little aid. She could also catch up even if she missed school a few days. Only she can't stay in one place. She would sometimes just stand and walk to the snack room to drink, or eat, or go to the toilet. We don't really mind so much... so we just advised her to ask for the teacher's permission before going anywhere"

Haha.. why am I not surprised? Because you're the same at home. You always have some things to do, or rooms/space to go... If you are not satisfied with things that you are having/doing. Is this a good thing? or not? I am still thinking about this, and would surely discuss this with your Abah. But what you did, i think... its just because you got bored, got thirsty.. and.. you feel like you have the right to do what you wanted to do... I mean, pegi minum, toilet... Cuma next time kena tanye teacher la dulu, okay... Hmmm.... Maybe because you feel at home.


"She has a very high confidence level. She argues when she disagrees" Gee... that reminds me of both of her parents ;-)

"She is so confident with herself, and maybe that has influence her growing leadership skills - sometimes she guides her friends with their tasks and corrected them if they made mistakes in their work herself. She carries her eraser and pencil around!" kahkahkah! Goodness!

"She would sometimes requested everyone to be quiet by knocking her pencil on the table and says 'quiet please'!" I was awed when i heard this... until I hear the next one... 

"There was one day there were two boys talking and laughing aloud. They were sitting on the floor next to where she was sitting. I think she was disturbed while concentrating with her task in hand so she turned to them and said 'hey! What so funny down there?! I was like 'hahahaha... hello???' " Teacher Lalitha.... that makes the TWO of us! hahahaha...

"She is a fun and playful girl. We love her and we like playing with her. She never hesitate to ask about anything. She asked a lot. She is very expressive too. She says what she feels all she wants. And she shares a lot with us. She tells us interesting things she did at home and all. Sometimes, she would just sit on any teacher's lap when she feels like sharing" ooo... ye ke? hahaha.. sukke2 je...

"She would really feel down whenever she had to stay behind for daycare. Most of the times, her mood would be affected since the beginning. She wouldn't do her tasks as well as she usually does when she is okay. Well, it really shows when something is bugging her" Hmmm... anak mama tak suka daycare.. mama tau ni.. Mama pun tak suka juga hanta Aliya lama2. Mama faham, sayang. Cuma sometimes... mama kena kerja. Mama kena pergi JB, jumpa supervisor mama... Harap one day Aliya akan faham dan maafkan mama, ya...

 

And while teacher Lalitha were talking ... and laughing about things that you did in school, you just listened and smile all the way... :-D.. silly gurl.

But all in all, she told me that you have done well. You would have no problem at all adapting to the kindergarten level, and you should be able to read on your own very soon. 

I am so proud of you, sayang. Like always... you never fail to make me proud. Mama sebenarnya ready utk dengar kelemahan2 Aliya. That is how we learn, kan? But so far... mama rasa sama je macam teacher Lalitha rasa. 

I think, you have done well.



I love you soooo... much. Nanti mama bawa Aliya double date dgn Irfan n aunty zubye ye... ;-)

The silly face that gives me strength

It has been a very weak week for me. I have been down with fever, and very low motivation for work. Everything seems so uninteresting. The gloomy sky, the regular boring day routines, the reading...

But then there's you. You never fail to make a difference. I mean look at you. You could make things that are so simple, that could have been meaningless if done by others (like when you self-captured your silly-pic above when i wasnt aware of it at all) into something so precious.

Thank you, darling. You can't imagine how much wonder you've brought in my life. Maybe you could never know how much i am thanking you now, nor how did that silly picture of you have helped me today. But I am praying that one day, one person could make you feel the same way.

Mighty Honest

"Kenapa mama pakai seluar tu?" you asked me, when I put my jeans on.

"mama nak ikut aliya la..." I answered.

"oh oh... I am sowwy momma.. But you cant come with us. Momma demam. Nanti bila mama shihat, mama boleh ikut, ya" You responded. There were sadness in your eyes, but honesty shines like always.

You have always been honest. Any kids would, i believe. Even when you know you may get in trouble for telling the truth. Like when you broke my hair clips and spill the drinks. But you'd still risk yourself because... that was just the truth.

If i haven't been praising you for doing so, i hope now its not too late. It takes a lot of courage and strength to be truthfull, you know. Its a rare quality nowadays. Though Islam taught us to be honest at all times, many muslims lack this in them.

a quick note

Comel anak mama. Mama suka sgtt tgk gamba ni. It became my hp's wall paper in case you dont remember...

I love you, baby.

What did you do on my Birthday

Da lama mama tak update blog untuk Aliya ni...

Last week mama sibuk dgn presentation PhD... This week pulak mama sibuk dengan.... urm... ape... yek... kemalasan untuk buat apa2 pun!

Mama rasa malas nak basuh pinggan.. basuh baju... kemas rumah.. tapi mama buat jugak sbb mata tak tahan pulak tgk semak2..

Tapi tu je la mama mampu buat... Thinking job.. creative job... 'very2 the' takde mood..

But anyway, mama rasa mama kena rekodkan jugak apa yg telah berlaku minggu lepas... minggu bday mama.. di mana abah telah membawa kita dinner di Restoran Melayu. Best tempat tu.. atas 2 perkara:
1. Makanan dia mmg sedap2..!
2. Ada traditional dance show!

Makanya ramailah tourist dan full house la tempat tu.. The performers were all good! pandai ambil hati audience. You lebih2 lagi la suka.. siap kat meja makan pun boleh joget sama..

Yang best sekali... the part when you actually danced on stage with them.. Alla... tak boleh la nak upload video.. boring tul
Nanti aliya tgk kat picasa ye.. dlm tag bday mama (31st) :)

KLCC With Mama

"Today is Monday" you said, very proudly when i said...

"today...." :-D

Hari ni ada gangguan bekalan elektrik di rumah kita. Due to a scheduled maintenance activity by TNB. So... i didnt want us to waste time staying indoor the hot weather without any aided ventilation, and i asked your dad where should we spend our 6 hours. He said... tgk wayang lah. KLCC. Ada show "cloudy with a chance of meatball". And so, we went. Park my car at the Setiawangsa LRT station, then got on the LRT train to KLCC. EZPZ. And if you remember.. the show.. woaaa...

Best giler! 

We just watch Aliens in the Attic and G-Force. This one is definitely so much better compared to them! G-Force pun kita tgk wayang jugak.... KLCC jugak. Without abah jugak sbb he went for Golf.

Ni gaya perasaan seronok sangat la ni... da lama tak naik LRT!

Then after the show, we went to Kino's bookshop. Spent about half and hour there, then moved to Petrosains Shop. Beli la Glow in the Dark stars and moon.... and a paint+mould tool set. Tak sedar.. tgk2 dah pun pukul 4.30pm. We were there since 1.30pm. Padan le penat semacam.

As soon as we got in the car, you lowered the seat and lie to sleep. Sleep terus sampai rumah. Mama tak sampai hati nak kejut so dukung le sampai atas. Perghhh... sampai tingkat 3 rasa macam nak pengsan pun ada. Nak pecah jantung angkat budak 20kg ni. Tapi.. bila da letak2 selesa2.. pakaikan pampers bagai... and tenung muka... hmm.. everything's worth it.

making-it-all-worthwhile-face

:-D

Jom!

" First, pegi school... 2nd, balik umah, mandi and makan nasi chicken and soup, 3rd, nak tgk mama main game mama; yang kuku tajam or yang owang tu jatuh and kat hand dia ada dawah...and then... nak pegi Gold Coast la Fatin wasa... "

wah wah wah... tekejut mama.. :D

"Gold Coast tu bukan boleh pegi hari ni sayang.. Its not like going to Jusco"

"Ala... nape?????"

hihihihi... ni abah la ni punye pasal... Aliya pantang nampak beach... memang sangat suka. Abah yang tunjuk advertisement MAS kot... dalam paper one day. Ingat sampai seminggu! Hari2 mintak ngan mama nak gi Gold Coast.

Amin... sayang.. InsyaAllah. Kalau ada rezeki kita, nanti kita pegi. Abah da bagi green light da tuh ;-)

gambar hiasan aje nih.. :D

Graduation... Um... Already..?!

 

My baby's first ever graduation. Preschool graduation! Next year, you will be joining TKC's kindergarten. How time flies...

It was a fun event. You were a firefly, flying around the (stunned.. haha) animals while holding two star wands. Unlike most of them, you were oblivious of the people watching you... :D

It was one of the proudest moments in my life. And you made it happened.

I love you so.

Raya 09

We celebrated this year's Eid in my hometown's first. On the Eid's eve, we drove back to Mersing and got there just about time for the fast breaking. It was an enjoyable celebration... very very meaningful especially to me...

Apart from the fact that so much has happened prior to Eid; to many in the family, the trip back to KB with Opah, Wan, Adnin, Andak, Ashoo, Achik and Ateh further added the joy to the sum of happiness. We made a few important stops and visits along the way, including the home of our family friend in Pekan and your Anjang's in laws in Dungun. They all were planning to go back to Parit Buntar (Opah's family) after spending a night at your Tok Ma's house. We instead, stayed until Saturday. We moved back to KL on Sunday after spending a night in Kemaman.

If you still remember, you had a great chance to play with some turtle's babies...


and there is a video in Picasa if you want to have a look at the moments. And there are a few pics taken at Opah's to enjoy as well. Hope by the time you view this blog, the pics would still be there!

Only, i regret to the non-existence of the pics during the Eid in KB... wonder what happened...??

Eid Mubarak, dear darling. I love you so.....

Saloon Day

It was afternoon.. on Friday, 11th Sept 09... Mama teringin nak buat hair spa.. rambut da macam happe je. SO, lepas amik Aliya dr school mama pun bawak Aliya gi kedai yg mama buat highlight dulu.. Kedai ni best sbb dlm kedai ni cantik, and then org2 dia pun friendly. Kedai melayu... N at that time masa kita pegi tu, sbb hari Jumaat dan di bulan Ramadhan.. diorg semua pakai baju melayu dan baju kurung. Cantik2 belaka macam da raya je.. So dr biar Aliya boring mama buat hair spa sensorang, mama soh diorg buat aliya punye rambut sekali lah. Teringat kat your Aunty Shikin yg dah a few times bawak girls dia buat rambut. Maka nye.. tercipta lah sejarah iaitu kali pertama Aliya buat hair spa.. In fact, this was the first time you've ever had anything done to your hair kat saloon. Selalunya mama and opah aje yang potong rambut Aliya!

Aliya Puasa tak?

You noticed that abah and I haven't been eating during the day lately. Sometimes you offered me some of your favorite drinks when you poured yourself some, only to be refused for the reason that I was fasting. I didn't know how much i could make you understand about fasting, despite all the explanation i gave you. You didn't respond much when it comes to this topic because... well maybe you didn't know how to. And maybe when you did ask me some questions to make you understand better, it was I who didn't know how to respond. This one has touched my heart;

Mama: Its okay Aliya... Mama tak boleh minum lagi, sbb mama puasa. Kita tunggu mama buka puasa bila Mr Sun comes down later, ya...?

Aliya: Hmm... Napa...? Mama tutup ke puasa?

Mama: Hehehehhehehe.... umm.... (didnt really know what to say) Yup... mama tutup puasa mama tadi masa Aliya sleep, masa Mr Sun belum keluar pun lagi...

Aliya: Kenapa?

Mama: Sebab skrg is the month of Ramadhan... semua muslim macam mama and Abah kena puasa (then i was afraid you didnt understand the concept of Months yet)

Aliya: Kenapa?

Mama: heheh... hmm... (now out of idea already) can i explain to you when you're a bit older?

Aliya: Kenapa?

Mama: Because by then, you could understand better....

Aliya: Hmmm (Not very satisfied yet, but.. ) okay.

Hehehe... then, when the topic resurfaced, you'd ask again... and again... :D. And of course I didn't and wouldn't mind... because I love you so.

The Baby Doll that says 'I love you, Mummy'

You've been asking Abah and I to get you the baby doll... Since you first saw the ad at Tok Ma's house. Abah gave you his word that he would get you the doll, if you behave as a good girl for the whole week. You were hesitant, but there was nothing you could have done to get things your way then. So you ... well, behaved like you. Like a fun, cheerful, witty 4 years old girl. You still drove us crazy sometimes, but at the end of the day, when we were watching you sleep we cant take our eyes off of you. Yezz.. you an angel. When you sleep....

Well, putting the condition was only a matter of delaying things that you're gonna get anyhow. He.. or me... WILL get that doll for you. We always did gave you almost everything you want, as long as they don't bring any potential harm to you. Only please, give us some time, okay... time wasnt on our side as yet. It will be soon. The weekend is coming.

BUT whatever happened to your old baby-doll I bought you when we live in JB? Hmm.. don't remember leaving it in MR.

A Tear Jerking Story... that i never want to forget

"Gold Wrapping Paper"

By Roshni Mahtani

I recently received this forward from a friend of mine and I wanted to share it with you all. It's a very touching story and I am sure you all will enjoy it as much as I did. The story goes that some time ago a mother punished her five-year-old daughter for wasting a roll of expensive gold wrapping paper. Money was tight and she became even more upset when the child used the gold paper to decorate a box to put under the Christmas tree. Nevertheless, the little girl brought the gift box to her mother the next morning and then said,
'This is for you, Momma.'

The mother was embarrassed by her earlier overreaction, but her anger flared again when she opened the box and found it was empty. She spoke to her daughter in a harsh manner.

'What rubbish is this? Don't you know, young lady, when you give someone a present there's supposed to be something inside the package?'

She had tears in her eyes and said, 'Oh, Momma, it's not empty! I blew kisses into it until it was full.' The mother was crushed. She fell on her knees and put her arms around her little girl, and she asked for forgiveness for her thoughtless anger.

An accident took the life of the child only a short time later, and it is told that the mother kept that gold box by her bed for all the years of her life.

Whenever she was discouraged or faced difficult problems she would open the box and take out an imaginary kiss and remember the love of the child who had put it there.

In a very real sense, each of us, as human beings, have been given a Golden box filled with unconditional love and kisses from our children, family and friends . There is no more precious possession anyone could hold.

Gosh... tear jerking... and i never want forget this. But knowing me... I do tend to forget telling you things... and sometimes including things that matter. So i am putting this story here, for you to read it one day and maybe pass it on to the people you care.

And darling, I dont want to forget to tell you that I love you so.

Weekend at Opah's n Swollen Eyes

We got here yesterday, and we'll be leaving later today...

So soon! Hmm.... We had to... Abah is working tomorrow, and I have to make preparations for this week's meeting with my supervisor. I haven't seen him for a month! So many things had happened... and I am so far behind schedule. I am foreseeing bumpy jurney ahead, with me struggling to complete my phd work on time (well, late... but as expected) and there are a lot of things to cover!

You asked to extend our stay here at Opah's. I am sorry honey, we'll have to do it next time. We'll be here again in two week's time, for Eid Mubarak. Yeay!

By the way, since your school session this recent Friday, i noticed that your eyes get swollen at times. Something must have had triggered it, I am pretty sure that it is an allergy reaction towards something. But I've only been giving you usual things you have no problem taking before... Hmm... I am still investigating... If today your eyes get swollen again, I'll take you to the Doctor.

Tok Ma Fell Sick

The first week of Ramadhan, we were supposed to go back to Mersing to celebrate the holy month with my family. But you caught a flu, and the doctor advised you to stay away from people at least until Saturday. So I asked Wan to postpone the event till the next Saturday. Early Saturday morning, Abah upon knowing that Tok Ma was suffering from stress till her eyes got swollen, decided to bring us all back to KB that very day.

We got there just about time to break the fast. She was okay when we got there. She already went to see the doc and so her eyes were better. Everything was fine until Sunday afternoon, when she fell really2 sick. Abah took her to the GH and the doc ruled out swine flu. So she was prescribed only with the regular medications for flu. But she could barely get up and her conditions were very2 unstable. Her fever subsided and but then rose again. She got very2 weak. Abah took her to a clinic and the doc said that the glucose level in her blood was very high. She has been diabetic for quite sometime now.

But the doc's medication didnt help much. A couple of days later, she had a high fever again, so we took her to KBMC (against her will), where Abah insisted for her to be admitted. The doc there found that that apart from the high sugar, she was also suffering from lung infection.

We were lucky we got there in time. As soon as she was placed in bed, she started shaking so bad due to the infection. They immediately gave her antibiotics, vitamins and pints of water.

She got better, and was discharged 4 days later.

It was the first time I see her in a condition where she was ... so not like her. Spiritless and weak... saying many2 times that it was her time to be with her husband. We were so worried.

Alhamdulillah. She's okay now. Although the day she was discharged she could not stand, or walk - was sleeping most of the time, ate nothing and even if she tried, they'd all come right out a few moments later. Today, when spoke over the phone, she sounded better, stronger.

She sounded like her again.

There are things that learned during the experience. Apart from the medical parts like diabetic condition could get worse if you eat too much or too little, and that local fruits like banana's are a big no-no for diabetic, there are also things like family values and, your values.

There was one time when you had to stay behind with me to be with Tok Ma. You were such a good girl. Any other kids i know would already threw tantrums for not being able to go anywhere thats fun, didnt get to drink your milk, and had to sit 6 hours on the sofa. But you were fine. You walked around the room, exploring the rooms, watching intently the nurses as they tend to Tok Ma, asking questions to understand things that you see, and doing stuffs without bugging Tok Ma or even me.

Tok Ma was proud of you. And you made abah and every uncle and aunty of yours proud. And so beyond words, you made me proud. You always do.

And that's why darling, I love you so...

A Colourful Weekend

Enjoying the last weekend before Ramadhan with Arija's family. At first, we planned to go to the zoo, but after lunch, we decided to try Lake Garden instead. It was a good thing that we did, we didnt know that there were lots and better things to do as a family as compared to the zoo. And we had great fun and wished the day wont end!

Captured above, two pics of you that i love most that day. And of course, you could find more in the album in which, could be accessed through one of the links below.

And i love you so... ;-)

"Mama, i need to talk to you about something"

This i have to do today. It has been on my mind since the moment it happened yesterday.

Me: Aliya, have you seen my sepit rambut here somewhere?

You: umm... Mama, come here.. I need to talk to you about something

Me, a lil bit puzzled by your action but amazed at the same time for hearing that sorta words came out of your cute lil mouth: Sure, honey. What is it?

You: Your sepit rambut is broken. I'm sorry fatin tak sengaja. It was an accident.

Me, terharu: Aww.. its okey sayang.. But where is it?

You: I hid it... Sbb kalau mama nampak nanti mama marah.. Fatin sorry mama...

Me: Alahai sayang... tak lah, mama x marah la..

Then i was thinking... Mama selalu ke marah Aliya for things like that? Gosh... I am so..oo.. sorry, sayang...

Then I hug and hug and hug you, and I think I couldnt stop hugging you, for making me see things that i have done to you without me realising it was for wrong reasons. And it was HOW you made me see it, that made me so proud of you... And you were just FOUR.

And I love you so.....

Jaundice (cont')

These may help you see how tiny you were.. ;)

Jaundice

Abah gave me these pics a few weeks ago. My my... how time flies. Looking at how tiny and vulnerable you were, its unbelievable how strong, energetic and active you can be today. These pics were taken by my sis's camera phone. Lucky she had one, or I'd miss putting these pic on the blog today. You were in my hometowns' hospital. We were admitted because you had jaundice, and had to be treated with U/V light. We were there for two nights. Your dad and grandpa came all the time, even after hours. Our beds were next to the windows so, they could just hang out outside and keep us company from there.

My darling Aliya, no matter how vulnerable, tiny or weak you might feel at one day, or no matter how bad the shape you might be at one time, (in which that day always come!) you will always grow out of it to be in your best. But remember, it can only happen if YOU allow it to happen, and believe that it would. Do remember this, ya... And I love you so.

Couple who gave house to son now homeless

Couple who gave house to son now homeless

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Dearest Aliya,

Can't help posting the news in here. It reminds me of some stories about 'ungrateful off-springs', which i hope i will get the chance to tell you one day. At this moment, i think you are still too young to understand, and to appreciate each story if i were to tell you now.

And darling, I love you so.

Art Attack!

This was unplanned. We attended the TKC's Parent-Teacher-Day today and after that, maybe for feeling bored for have been keeping ourselves at home (no thanks to the haze and H1N1), I just drove you to the National Library, hoping that we would get the chance to check out the kids section. Unfortunately, there was a function held at the Library and a crowded place was the last place we would want to go. So, one of my dearest friend Shikin mentioned to me a few times about her spending time with her girls at the Great Eastern Mall, Jln Ampang KL when we met and remembering that, I thought maybe I should give it a try. It was not that far from where we were anyway.

So, there we were. You chose to make a pull-bunny. But you were so unsure because you were worried of not knowing how to do it. The teacher managed to convince you that she'll guide you along the way. However, the moment you know that I'll be with you at all times you're there, you happily hopped into the class, pulled on the paint-jacket and sat at the table.

Everything after that, went smoothly till the end.

p/s: So... remember this when you want to do something, but you feel a lil bit unsure of your abilities. Just know that you'll make it through. You always do.

And I love you so.

Asthmatic Since Baby

This is one of the so many times you had to be gased (Nebulized). You had this even more frequent when you were between 10 months and 2 years old. You were admitted to the hospital when you were almost two due to brocho-pneumonia. Due to the history of asthma that runs in both Abah's and my sides, you only had so minimal chance to escape having it in you. There were many that could trigger your allergy reactions - where your respiratory system would be compromised. Food, milk, drinks... Since you were a baby, you were lactose intolerant. Thus can only consume FL + HA milk (we gave u BEBELAC FL + NAN HA). You'd have runny nose and coughing if you get upsetting food in your sensitive lil tummy, inclusive of all cultured-drink e.g. vitagen, lychee drink, grapes, orange and a few others that i dont remember this very minute. But most of them you love so much. But i always give you a lil bit of each praying that your body will get to adapt having them. And it worked. And i was even more glad i did it since recently i found in a medical journal that the method has been proven to work (2009). Nevertheless, up to today you're still very sensitive to dust, and now the haze (in which at present moment very2 bad) and also flu virus carried by other children your age, which is also very very common nowadays. So i have to keep 3 important items close to you at all times- your aerochamber, the combivent and inflammide puffs, to be given to you when your asthmatic symptoms appear. While i am writing this, there is actually a virus outbreak (H1N1) which is very fatal, especially to those with respiratory ailments. You, are among the high-risk group. To date, in Malaysia 26 people died of it. I could not take any chance of you getting it so, i've been keeping you away from school and going out to public places for almost 2 weeks now. Im praying that this outbreak will go away soon...

Aliya and Beach

You love beach... You love to swim... and since very little you never show any fear of water... These are among the moments you enjoyed the beach in Mersing, with your cousins Amzar, Adnin and Ayeesya, and your uncle and aunties. And of course, Abah and I were there too... :D.

H1N1 virus...

At this moment, i wish i could tell you how badly i am worried about this virus. It attacks people and you, being asthmatic is very2 vulnerable for its fatal effect. So i spend a lot of my time these days learning as much as i can about this virus, and the possible means of fighting it away. As for now, the followings are what i've found:

How the virus spread: Spread like other influenza virus: through air and contact.

Symptoms of attack: Fever, flu, runny nose / excessive mucus in respiratory system: Lung, bronchial. Those with respiratory ailments, pregnant, diabetic, obese have higher fatality risk.

What to eat/drink to help ease and prevent: Coconut Drink, Orange, Lemon, Pomelo, Birdnest, Scott's Emulsion, Lots of Mineral/plain water, Green Apples.

Avoid to consume: Ice.

What to do: Stay away from crowd, public places, contact within 1 metre with anyone with flu, wear face-mask, shower with warm water (avoid cold water), avoid ice and late night shower/bath.

Once feeling feverish; quickly seek medical treatment. Those who are in high risk group (you!) will be given anti-viral without further delay. And keep yourself away from others, self-quarantine at home, or as per doctors' advise.

Speed boat ride to Manukan Island... Yippeeeee!

Memorable Trip to Kota Kinabalu

Karambunai beach.... some say its heaven!

Food we enjoyed

A trip to mount Kinabalu...

Abah and You

Love this pic... There's so much love in it. It was taken a few moments after we finally reached the hotel room - Le Meredian in Kota Kinabalu, exactly a week ago. We had so much fun there. You were such a good girl, traveling with you was pure joy and not difficult at all. Your dad and i talked a lot about you, and couldn't stop thanking Allah for blessing us with you...

Aunties and Uncles

My side has more aunties in it, as opposed to abah's. I am the second daughter of 8, and the one after me is the only son. All in the pic, clockwise from far left - Achik (Aqila), You, Adnin, Andak (Marznura), Ashoo (Arina), Ateh (Wani), Ayah (should be Pak Long but you call him Ayah because Adam call him that - Nizam), Ibu (same case - Marzlina), Anjang (Marzwin/Mona), You, Papanjang (Syawal), Amzar, Ayah De (Amin), Mak De (Fizah) and the once mentioned before Ayeesya.

And this is where the pool of your uncle is.. Abah's side.Abah is the first son of 7. As oppose to my side, there is only one aunty here-the youngest daughter. All in the pic clockwise from left- Uncle Ming (Syamim), Uncle Dan (Syahidan), Cik Su (Ayuni), Uncle Pique (Syafiq), Uncle Chik (Shahrul), Cik Su, Uncle Dan, TokMa, you and Uncle Pique. I could not find the pic of your pak ngah (Sahlan) and mak ngah (Sarini) yet. I'd surely add them later when i found them.

Why am I doing this.....

My dearest Aliya,

So... You would probably wonder why I'm doing this? Its simple, really. Because I dont know until when I am going to live. It's not that I want to go early, but.. If my time comes, I want to be able to know at the very last moment of my life, that I've done everything I could possibly think of to help you face the world. They say its going to get harder everyday. And as far as I learned so far, what they say is true. What really helped me so far, is to have a strong foundation of who I really am. I believe that we need to know who we really are, the goodness inside of us, the people whom matters to us and those that once were. Our ancestors, history, are what made us who we are today. By learning our roots, we would also learn to handle today. By going back to my roots.. by going back home and find out who I really am, I was saved from being astrayed.

I have made many mistakes, had failures, difficulties, people that made them difficults, and also a lot of regrets that a lot of time, I wished I could go back in time and fix them. But we can't do that. But what we can do, is to learn from them. Always think of them as a part of learning to become someone better, every step of the way. Always remember, and have faith that everything that has happened and will happen to you, is for the best of you. And darling, remember Allah. He knows the best for you. Have faith on the path He has destined you to be. And have a lot of patience.

Darling,

I've always thought that the main thing to write in here is all about you. Your medical records, your school reports, your favourite stuff, everything, until you finally reach the time when you dont need me to remind you of things you know more than anyone else. But as i do this, I read an article by a man who misses his parent. His dad was gone when he was away. They have never been very close. They dont spend a lot of time talking to each other eventhough they did a lot of things together. When his dad finally died, he met his dad's friends and relatives he used to know, but already forgotten. When they talked about his dad and the things he used to do, he realised that there are more of him that he did not know about. His heart was aching to know about his dad, so he search everything he could find out about him. Nothing really helped much, as his parents moved a lot. The only things he had, was a stack of book his dad used to read. And that was about it.

So, I've decided to include your dad's history, and also mine. At this moment, I am not really sure how it would help you one day. But I hope when you need them, its here to be found.

The Ever Wonderful. The Grands.

These are Opah's brothers. The one with only kain pelekat (below) is Tok Teh Din. His Wife is Nenek Teh Rose. They have been my favourite since i was little.

The other one, the one with his hand in bandage is Opah's eldest brother. My Pak Long. Him and his wife, mak long were like your ibu and me's other parents when we were little. We once were left under their care for a long time during school holiday. Your ibu and i were very little at that time. I think i was about your age. But i have only fond memories of them.

tok teh din and you

My darling Aliya, these are among the many beautiful moments you've spent with the grands... They've loved your company, and always look forward to spending time with you. What goes without saying, is that they love you even more.