I Miss You.

Iyye, memang mama jumpa you everyday.
Yes, I say I love you every day, hug you a lot, as much as I can and as much as you would allow.

But honestly, from the bottom of my heart I do not feel like they are enough. Not at all. If you could just remember how things were before when you were a lot little.

You're growing up, even faster now. I am lucky enough to be able to stay home for now and see you more than if I'm back to work, and honestly, I have no idea how the working mothers catch up with their kids, even more so if they have more than one at your age.You may not understand how I feel, but its like I am getting a preview of how its going to be when you're leaving the nest. And mayyn its overwhelming!

I guess, all I am saying is, just for a little while longer, hang on to me. Just be my baby. Just a little while longer.

Before you'd have to hang on to the man of your life, your dream job, your children, your friends.

When I am still here. When we are still close. When you still feel like your days are incomplete without seeing me around, without knowing that I am around.

I just love you so much. You are still that same person.. the first tiny person that have taught me how to love a selfless love. You made me, a mother. You're still the one that keeps surprising me with those many wonderful, amazing things that you do and you are still the face that I keep in my heart for strength and hope. And I thank Allah for everyday, for every moments that He lends me you in my life.

So just... yeah. Be my baby for a little while longer. Ya?

Because I am missing you.

I guess that... so what... I am that clingy kinda mom.



But my darling, I just love you so.