Daddy's Little Girl

My poor baby. I have never seen you missing someone like this before. Abah had to be away for work, thursday till sunday. And since monday, you hasn't seen him - he had to attend class after work, went to driving range, and so by the time he got home, you had already been in bed. And then he had left for work in the morning before you got up. So... tonight, you did not want to go to bed. You said you wanted to wait for Abah.

"Dah lama saya tak see face abah". And you cried. Sedih mama tengok Aliya. So I smsed him hoping he would call. He did not reply. This is a bit strange to me sebab he had sent me smses, and even called me before. I hope nothing serious is happening to him.

Mama pujuk Aliya tengok gambar abah kat frame.Yang ada gambar aliya and abah. You looked happy at first. But after a few moments, you told me that they were not enough.

"I want to see the real Abah" tears were flowing down your cheek.

I called your daddy. But I didnt get through: Network busy.

"i am sorry, darling. I could not get him. Maybe we can try later, okay. In the mean time, why dont you lie down, put the frame by your side and pretend like its him?" I wished so hard that you'd buy that. I know you love play-pretend.

"Okay. But i dont want to put abah by my side. I want to hug abah. A great big hug". You said with a great big smile on your face.

"Okay, sayang. Of course". That was a relief. And then you lay down, hugging the pic close to your chest.

Then as you settled in bed and closed your eyes, i turned off the light. I went to my room and tried to contact your daddy again. But I still couldn't get through.

So i decided to get ready for bed myself. A few seconds later, you came into my room. I asked you what was wrong. Then you said
"Its so dark. I cant see Abah's face. I need to see his face". Oh dear darling. I went back to your room and turned on the bedside lamp. You smiled, jumped on your bed and lay down hugging the pic frame once again.

That was you when you missed your daddy that day. I hope your dad will try to spend some time with you before he fly to China on the next weekend. I hope your daddy will read this entry some day. i think he needs to know.

- hugging a pic of you and abah -